There’ll Be No…


If you ever leave me, baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
‘Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don’t have it anymore.

There’s no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor(Ooh)
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I’m makin’
To keep you by my side
To keep you from walkin’ out the door.

‘Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it’ll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain

I’ll never be your mother’s favorite
Your daddy can’t even look me in the eye
Ooh, if I was in their shoes, I’d be doing the same thing
Sayin’ “There goes my little girl
Walkin’ with that troublesome guy”

But they’re just afraid of something they can’t understand
Ooh, but little darlin’ watch me change their minds
Yeah for you I’ll try I’ll try I’ll try I’ll try
I’ll pick up these broken pieces ’til I’m bleeding
If that’ll make you mine

‘Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it’ll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain

Oh, don’t just say (don’t just say) goodbye (goodbye),
Don’t just say (don’t just say) goodbye (goodbye)
I’ll pick up these broken pieces ’til I’m bleeding
If that’ll make it right

‘Cause there’ll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There’ll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it’ll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain

Everything Will Change But…

1.  something that remains or is left
2.  Remains~
a. traces of some quality, condition, etc., 
b. a dead body; corpse
3. to be left after the removal, destruction or loss
4. to stay behind or in the same place 
5. to continue in the same state; continue to be
Dear You,
We should have had the sun.  But instead we find ourselves here.  In this place.  How did we get here?  It seems so long since we started our steps together.  The pursuits chased as we forgot about how quickly time goes by.
Together.  One behind the other, walking silently behind to break the fall, and then we would switch.  Never letting the other to be left alone.  Waiting to be let in, because I knew there would come a moment where I would turn around and SEE you were there…always.
Always.  A courageous, symbolic, and pure extension of your heart.
Why did the sun set on what we dreamed for, we may never understand. What I do know?  Everything will change and “even the very wise cannot see all ends.”~Gandalf
Formed in character and sublime for the weathered erosion it has endured.  The signs of a true life built, shared and continued, love remains.
Mine for you and yours for me…it remains the same.  After it all, this I know, I love you. ~Me
Remains~Photo by Trupti

Pay It Forward

1.  one of the equal fractional parts into which the capital stock of a joint-stock company or a corporation is divided  

2.  the full or proper portion or part allotted or belonging to or contributed or owed by an individual or group
I have plenty.  So it seems appropriate to think about someone other than myself.  Shocking isn’t it?  So shocking that it took years to accept it.  But it has sunk in.  I’m basically a study in the practice of perseverance and patience.
But there is no way I would have ended up in this place unless I had someone by my side.  In “light” of the the time and energy this person has given of themselves to our life, it’s now my turn to devote my  life’s work to not letting another second go by without giving in the same manner.
What separates some from the selfless?  They don’t have to be taught.  But it is within us all.
Look around, share of yourself, and pay it forward.
There are plenty who could use a lucky star in their life.  I have one such star.  So bright.
Help someone find their way home.
Dear You,
Thank you for quietly shining your bright light, finding me, and bringing me home.
Love, Me

“When you’re lost and you’re alone and you cant get back again
I will find you darling and I will bring you home.”

~By Your Side, Sade

Forever As One

  1. eternity; eternal duration
  1. lasting or continuing for an indefinitely long time
  2. incessant; constantly recurring
  3. lasting forever; eternal
That sounds like a very long time.  Especially in a life (which for many of us is) plagued with not enough of minutes.  What do you think of when you think of something with no beginning or end?
The universe?  Although some would argue the universe did have a beginning.
What about love?  How did this come to exist?  When was it was certain that euphoria and passion would be connected to this word?  To our human existence?
Who attached the notion that love is more profound beyond the initial time of adulation?
Deeper within the daily acts of devotion, in the acts of simplicity and eternal purpose.
Sprinkled stars on and through the years.
Heavenly, luminous bodies dedicated one to the other…in their faithful, everlasting promise.
Forever as one.


Lila & Anant
Mom & Dad,
Thank you for the lesson in true commitment and unwavering love.
Happy 49th Anniversary!

By Giving Me Yours

the core of a tree; the solid central part without sap or albumen
2.  good condition for production, growth
a.  the homologous structure in other vertebrates, consisting of four chambers in mammals and birds and three chambers in reptiles and amphibians.
b.the analogous contractile structure in invertebrate animals, as the tubular heart of the spider and earthworm.
4.  the center of the total personality, especially with reference to intuition,feeling, or emotion
5.  the center of emotion, especially as contrasted to the head as the center ofthe intellect
6.  capacity for sympathy; feeling; affection
7.  ~Anatomy
a.  ahollow,pumplike organ of blood circulation, composed mainly ofrhythmically contractile smooth muscle, located in the chest between thelungs and slightly to the left and consisting of four chambers
8.  a person (used especially in expressions of praise or affection) spirit, courage, or enthusiasm
9.  the innermost or central part of anything
Dear You,
“They” say love makes you weak in the knees.  What about calves?  I woke up this weekend and I could barely walk across the room.  Anyways, if the knees are the first to go when you fall in love, what happens when love ends?
When you are the one who didn’t want love to end, the lasting affects can be especially traumatic.  At least for an unknown amount of time.  This is what sucks-the not knowing “when is this feeling going to end?”
Along with the high you once felt, the lows are just as deep.  The astonishment you once felt and thought, “how did you get this lucky?”, turns to a stunning sense of shock.  The shock waves ripple like a missile to the place inside, leaving you convinced you can never let anyone in there again.
This missile blew my soul into so many pieces.  It was unimaginable that the pain would ever recede far away enough for anything alive to have enough air to survive.  It would be a long while before an outsider was given an insiders view to this special space.  To allow them to occupy me fully again.
But then one day it happened.  The surge of vitality caused me to awaken and SEE.  I could feel life beginning to pump throughout me.
It was because of you.
There are moments of realization which are fleeting.  If you blink one too many times, they can be lost forever.  You are a once in my lifetime moment.  The time when the world came together just long enough to make me SEE.
The planets aligned.  The force of it allowed the universe to resuscitate me.  You brought back the innermost part of me, by giving me yours.  You have my heart always.  Thank you.
I love you.


There’s A Quiet Storm

noun, plural ta·boos
  1.  a prohibition or interdiction of anything; exclusion from use or practice
  2. (among the Polynesians and other peoples of the South Pacific)
    a.  the system, practice, or act whereby things are set apart as sacred, forbidden for general use, or placed under a prohibition or interdiction.
    b.  the condition of being so set apart, forbidden, or interdicted
  3. exclusion from social relations; ostracism
  1. prohibited or excluded from use or practice
  2. proscribed by society as improper or unacceptable
Interesting concept wouldn’t you agree?
In a way, like the rain when it falls.  It comes down sometimes without warning but needed each time.  I think it’s like you.  Some things in life are known by simply living them.  This is you.
Simplicity, comfort, and peace is what you provide…just like the rain’s rhythm.
How can this be wrong?
Why are we drawn to that which we know is not good for us?
Or is that just the voice of society defining what we should want vs. following the quiet storm bounding us to our sweetest taboo?
Sweetest Taboo~Sade
If I tell you
If I tell you now
Will you keep on
Will you keep on loving me
If I tell you
If I tell you how I feel
Will you keep bringing out the best in me

You give me, you give me the sweetest taboo
You give me, you’re giving me the sweetest taboo
Too good for me

There’s a quiet storm
and it never felt like this before
There’s a quiet storm
that is you
There’s a quiet storm
and it never felt this hot before
Giving me something that’s taboo
(Sometimes I think you’re just too good for me)

You give me the sweetest taboo
That’s why I’m in love with you (with you)
You give me the sweetest taboo
too good for me
(Sometimes I think you’re just too good for me)

I’d do anything for you, I’d stand out in the rain
Anything you want me to do, don’t let it slip away
There’s a quiet storm
and it never felt like this before
There’s a quiet storm
I think it’s you
There’s a quiet storm
and i never felt this hot before
Giving me something that’s taboo

You give me the (you give me the) sweetest taboo
That’s why I’m in love with you (with you)
You give me, keep giving me the sweetest taboo
Too good for me

You’ve got the biggest heart
Sometimes i think you’re just too good for me
Every day is Christmas, and every night is new year’s eve
Will you keep on loving me
Will you keep on, will you keep on
Bringing out the best in me

You Would Have Thought By Now…

1.  something thats ecures or controls entrance to a place
1.  chief; major; important; essential; fundamental; pivotal
1.  to provide with a key
Did anyone ever ask you “what did you learn today?”  If you were like me, it happened when I was younger.  At that time it was just something I did with my parents. Part of our routine.  It didn’t seem significant. And often times, the exchange ended in their dissatisfaction of my answer so it just sucked more.
Over the years we all learn.  On some things faster and other things slower and probably something everyday.  But how often do we miss the real learning opportunities?
We pile up our learning by taking exams.  Thinking that if we just pass enough to get through to the next phase of our lives, we are learned (lur-nid).  When in fact we fail to SEE what our presence here is trying to teach us through life’s true tests.  How does this happen?  How do we lose sight of the meaning in each day?
The manner in which we approach tests, who we become as a result, and how we choose to continue the journey after, proves fateful.
If we were to step back and take a deeper participation, wouldn’t we be happier?  If we logged the human lesson each day and added it to the next, couldn’t it lead to contentment?  Cheezy?  Possibly.
But, could I have finally grasped the key to emancipation?
You would have thought by now,  I’d have learned something.
There’s too many things that I haven’t done yet
There’s too many sunsets I haven’t seen
You can’t waste the day wishing it’d slow down
You would’ve thought by now
I’d have learned something
I made up my mind when I was a young girl
I’ve been given this one world
I won’t worry it away, no
Now and again I lose sight of the good life
I get stuck in a low light
But then love comes in
How far do I have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Many the miles
How far do I have to go to get to you
Many the miles
But send me the miles and I’ll be happy to follow you, love
I do what I can wherever I end up
To keep giving my good love
And spreading it around
‘Cause I’ve had my fair share of take care and goodbyes
I’ve learned how to cry
And I’m better for that
Sing, how

I’ll Give It All Til’ You Can’t Feel It Anymore

1. (used, usually interrogatively, to express hesitation, uncertainty, curiosity, etc.): “Yes?”
2. (used to express affirmation or assent or to mark the addition of something emphasizing and amplifying a previous statement): Do you want that? Yes, I do.
3. to give an affirmative reply to; Yes!
Dear You,
Thinking, SEEing I could say Yes.
Waiting to say Yes.
Saying Yes.
Up, down, sideways, backwards, and diagonal…I say Yes.  And with each sincere, deep, passionate, scared, confusing, angry, sad, misunderstood, and grateful turn…I’ll give it all til’ you can’t feel it anymore.

Let’s Go Be Happy



1.  to spring through the air from one point or position to another; jump 
2.  to move or act quickly or suddenly 
3.  to pass, come, rise, etc., as if with a jump: 
4.  to jump over 
5.  to cause to leap
6.  spring, jump, or bound; a light, springing movement  
7.  the distance covered in a leap 
8.  a place leaped or to be leaped over or from
9.  a sudden or abrupt transition

10.  by leaps and bounds, very rapidly 
11.  leap in the dark, an action of which the consequences are unknown 
12.  leap of faith, an act or instance of accepting or trusting in something that cannot readily be seen or proved but in your heart is KNOWN…
A simple and profound realization which so many of us consider and too few KNOW to be ours?  I SEE it to be within grasp.  Or maybe I was always holding it…only my grip had loosened on my understanding of it’s concept.  Instead of dwelling on the don’t haves, couldn’t do, will never be, I am ready to embrace myself with unabashed acceptance of who I have become.
 At some point, it comes down to a choice, (which we actually all have), to have trust in the process of our lives.  To trust that when things don’t go our way, life has a plan…even if the one we set forth on, falls through and completely apart. My reaction when things fell apart was the key.  So what does it mean?  Well, basically the difference between being frozen in fear, trapped in a safe, chance-less existence, OR freeing yourself forever, as you stretch to climb to new heights.
New heights of comprehension, humility, gratitude, desire, and will.  Heights which initially could not been foreSEEn. They would have been lost and unknown forever, had it not been for a brave leap of faith to a planet waiting to amaze.  So, what do you say we jump and let’s go be happy?