Excuse Me, You’re In My Light

1. the identification of something as having been previously seen, heard, known
2.  the acknowledgement of something as valid or as entitled to consideration
3.  can act of recognizing or the state of being recognized
4.  the perception of something as existing of true; realization
With five planets in Retrograde this month, And tonight a full moon but the sky’s been hazy.  No wonder I am having some fogginess.  When you need clarity the most, it’s then that it’s often the hardest to find.  Especially under the cloak of doubt clouds slowly covering our source of light.  Ever noticed when you need to SEE the most, things go dark?
Now that’s timing.  Brilliant!
This doubt, which I believe has been caused by radical change, is creating fear.  Is that a trifecta or what?
But the whole reason I initiated this level of change, is because I was actually fearless.  So now that these feelings have managed to seep in, I remind myself of how long I had muddled about in an attempt to avoid the light.  Also known as The Aimless Ages.
I am not returning there.
First, one needs to recognize why the fear exists.
WHY?!  This is where the LUNARtic moment comes in.  Not going to lie, sometimes, it would make life a whole lot easier if someone just told me why vs. having to figure it out on my own.  And in this moment, while in the throws of full on frustration mode, the lightbulb went off.
Fear is created by one’s own inability to face the reality of a situation.  Even when initially faced, fear can remain.  Then, just as the clouds come in, they slowly pass by, bringing in recognition of all you were willing to risk and finally allow “to thine own self be true.”
Within this moment of internal brightness, you can stand up to fear and say, “Excuse me, you’re in my light.”


Better Sit Up And Take A Listen

1.  direct perception of truth, fact, etc., independent of any reasoning process
2.  ~Philosophy
a.  an immediate cognition of an object not inferred or determined by a previous cognition of the same object
b.  any object or truth so discerned
c.  pure, untaught, noninferential knowledge
3.  a fact, truth the quality or ability of having such direct perception or keen, quick insight
Trusting is hard because of two reasons:
a.  You can be wrong
b.  You can get hurt
I have experienced both.  This, for a long time, resulted in my trying to avoid risk, taking chances, and ignoring the gnawing tug from within.  And as I’m learning with each passing day, the attempt to avoid being wrong and getting hurt, only caused more of both.
Oh yah, all that diving and dodging for what?
Here I am at another crossroad and I think I could be right about this next step.  But freaking out as I decide whether or not to cross the line.  Forever we’re ingrained and induced with fear to stay within the lines.  So much so that we SEE anything outside them as a misstep.
And what if I am wrong?  What happens then?  Do I evaporate into dust, like a vampire exposed to light?  Nope.  Does everyone who supports and loves me suddenly walk away?  Nope.  Does the world end?  Nope.  Then why such fright involved in taking the next step?
Not everything is going to result in perfection.
I will be ALL right even when things go wrong.
Best to have no regrets on the “dids” than a gut load of them on the “did not’s”.
Maybe I wasn’t always where I wanted to be, but I can now SEE I am exactly where I need to be.  Must be my intuition talking again.  Better sit up and take a listen.
Sit Up