noun, plural e·gos.
1. the “I” or self of any person; a person as thinking, feeling, and willing, and distinguishing itself from the selves of others and from objects of its thought
2. conceit;self-importance:Her ego becomes more unbearable each day
3. self-esteemorself-image; feelings
a. the enduring and conscious element that knows experience
b. Scholasticism~
the complete person comprising both body and soul
5. Psychoanalysis~                           the part of the psychic apparatus that experiences and reacts to the outside world and thus mediates between the primitive drives of the id and the demands of the social and physical environment.
Why is it such an uphill climb to SEE the self as it is?  What is it about acceptance which causes such barriers?  Basically everything.
Don’t know about you but I haven’t always been open to having my…let’s say…opportunities for growth pointed out to me.  Why?  Because often times the information being disseminated is true.  What’s tougher on top of this, is when the realization hits, that had you not been so opposed to SEEing it, you could have saved yourself years of inner angst.
Having to put aside your own fear, and face who you really are, is not a simple task.  But it is a worthwhile challenge to undertake.
Once you start this climb, you slowly come to SEE the features you have fought so hard against in accepting, as parts of you which you wouldn’t be YOU without.  And those parts were present for a purpose,  Your unique purpose.  And if anything about the road which led you there was changed, I wouldn’t be me.
Shocking concept right?  I know!  All this time I was fixated on explaining or defending myself.  That when I may not have been “in line” with others and fearful of hearing how that difference meant something was wrong with me.  Versus allowing myself to simply evolve.  That my journey was my own and just as valid- even if it was completely different than “the most”.
The place where self acceptance didn’t lead to self hate but to self love.
It is an ongoing lesson, this notion of letting go.
And in this case to Lego my Ego only to gain a more complete person, body and soul.  Without the demands of the worlds social and physical environments.

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